Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Down

So I am sitting in the Panera Bread all by myself. I just drank the broth off of the chicken noodle soup. I have a fill today so I am on only clear liquids.

I am so down. I just left my general doctor. My meds are not working and I am crying all the time. I am so depressed about my lack of weight loss, being struck in our crispy rent house and I miss my friends.

I have gained all my weight back. I don't know how. I don't eat much. I currently eat less than my kids.

So today my anxiety is up and my depression is overwhelming. I am now being put on 2 anxiety/depression meds and my doctor is checking my thyroid again.

That's it. I am down in all the wrong places.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Still Fat

Well, struggles and failures.  I am not losing the weight like I had hoped.  I changed some of my medication in hopes of that helping.  I am eating less that is for sure!  I still struggle with my Dr. Pepper.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Blog Worthy

Well, I had a very eventful day.  I am on vacation at my dads this week.  I feel it is important to share.

Let me start by saying that when I had this surgery I promised myself I would get back to the girl who would try anything. I had been hiding behind my weight for too long. That being said I tried many things today. Some were fun. Some failed.

I started my day off at the water park with my 3 sisters. They are all adorable and skinny and look cute in a swim suite.  I use to be self conscious around them. But I also decided to let that go. It really feels good to let it go. I know they love me for me.

The kids wanted to go down water slides,  so I went with them. The first one was great!  Loved the feeling of doing something I haven't do in a long time.  The second one did me in. My fat but (while thinner than last summer) doesn't fit well in a water slide tube. I fell out, slammed my head into the wall and broke my sun glasses.  The visit ended short with thunderstorms. But all in all the day was great. I love being with my sisters and all the kids.

Back at dads we ate dinner and ventured outside. The girls wanted to ride horses. Dad and my hubby were mowing. So I called the horses up. There are 4 of them. Caught the easy one. Got her saddled and sent my oldest off to ride. One of the horses is a big pet. She decided to follow me around and beg for attention. While giving in to her she stood on my foot. OUCH. Caught number 2. While getting her saddle the big pet pushed open the gate and let herself and horse 4 out.  So then I caught and tied up all 4 horses. I was sweated wet and ready to walk away. But I didn't.  Got horse 2 saddled with dads help.  Got to go for a ride with my daughter. Worth it! 

This is where I should have stopped.  I decided I wanted to go for an evening ride with my hubby. Got horse 3 saddled. She is a nice horse but HATES people actually getting on her. I rode her in March with NO issue. We seemed to work well together. Now, please keep in mind my short legs and large rear make it hard to hike my body up onto the saddle. I walked the horse over to the end of the flat bed trailer and had dad hold her. I put my foot in the stirrup and up I went. Before I knew it I was laying on the ground rolling out of the way of a 1500 pound horse about to fall on me.

Dad is not pleased. I've got a bruise on my stomach where I hit the saddle horn. It is just above my port. I am pretty sure I will hurt tomorrow.

Now, all this to say I am finding my confidence again with each pound I lose. This this the cowgirl I use to be. Not afraid of anything and giving my dad grey hairs.

This picture was from march when I was able to get on!  

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

It's been awhile

I know, I know...too long between posts. Life has run away with me.

Since my last post I have stop losing. I had my first fill.  And I have gone to very strange and ugly measures to try and fix my heel spurs.

So I am still down about 30 pounds. I have put some back on and that is how I knew it was time for a fill. Getting my first fill was the strangest thing I have done medically to date. I started my day with a liquid diet. When I got to the office I go back to the back waiting room. When I was called back I had to lay down on a flat table with my hands behind my head. Then I lift both legs up together while keeping a straight knee. (This causes all your core muscles to tighten.) While I am focused on holding my legs up the doc sticks a VERY long needle into my pot. Then I get off the table with the syringe still hanging out. I stand in front of the X-Ray machine. I drink the barium liquid and the doc injects the fill. And I kid you not; when he pulled out the needle it made a pop sound. OUCH. Anyway, it was a small fill and I don't even notice. I will be going back next week for a follow up fill.

As far as my heel spurs go, I bought some sexy foot braces to wear at night. They seem to be helping. I hope to have non painful feet soon and be able to walk more. I will try and attach a picture. It is worth a good laugh!

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Name My Lap Band!

I was reading on my Lap-Band Divas support page and I am laughing because some of the bandsters have named their band. I need a name for my band. My hubby said Sally Stomach Sphincter. I think not. Leave me a comment of any ideas you have and I'll pick from from the list!

And while I am here I will say that I am SICK of liquids. I want to chew my food again. I have slowly started trying things and chewing again. I had scrambled eggs and is was SOOOOO good!

I am down over 30lbs, which was my goal for this week. I am losing slowly now; about 1-2 pounds a week. I miss seeing the scale move every day, but I know slower is better!

I have a doctor's appointment next week and I will post after that.

Thanks for all the love and support!

Monday, February 11, 2013

Goal Reached!

Just wanna shout to everyone...I'm down 32lbs. I had a personal goal to be down 30 before Valentine's Day. I did it.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

29lbs!

So, I got on the scale this morning and I was down 29lbs from January 1st. I am so excited. I heard once that you need to lose about 30lbs before people really start to notice. It's true. I have had a few people comment and I love it! My moms says she can see it in my face and tummy. My hubby says he sees it in my butt! And I am really starting to notice in my clothes! Today I put on a pair of jeans that were tight over Christmas and today I could pull them off without unzipping them if I tried.

I am also starting to feel it in other areas too. For example the girls and I went to HEB this morning because we heard that there would be a Flash Mob. We were able to join in with the employees doing the Cupid Shuffle. I not only did the dance; I made it to the end and was less winded and my hips didn't hurt as bad! WIN!

Thanks to all that follow and ask me for updates. I will try my best to do it weekly or more if there is something blog worthy.